It's over

The Angels came for husband at 3:48 this afternoon.  It was a beautiful experience.

So long, love of my life.

I'll see you on the other side when God calls me home.

Thank you all for your love, prayers and support.

It has meant a lot.

I am going to California in August for a little staycation.  I will sit on the beach in my hometown and remember.

I will update soon.

The Long and Winding Road

Husband has taken a turn for the worse.

Hospice says 1-2 days.

He's home with me, family arriving tomorrow.

I am talking to him, he does not respond, but they said the last thing to go is his hearing.  Tish and Jace are spending the night with me.

I am afraid to sleep, for fear he will pass with me asleep.

It will be a long night.

I thought I was so strong.  I am not ready for him to go, but, I have to tell him it's ok to go.

God is here, I feel Him.  Angels are here as well.  It's crowded in the bedroom.

I will update when it's over.

Curtain Call

Last month, when husband saw Dr F in Denver, I remember when he told me, "Soon, he will slip into the unknown."

And, right on cue, husband slipped into the unknown.

This past week, walking has become nil.  With a great deal of pain beginning on Wednesday.  Wednesday night, husband and I pulled an all-nighter.  By morning, I was afraid for husband, so I called 911.

He was admitted and spent the next 3 days under observation.

At least I got answers.

As I was leaving the hospital yesterday, to come home and prepare for his home coming, they told me husband had a slight stroke.  Typical for end-of-life Alzheimer's patients.

Husband is now home.

On Hospice.

He is not aware of anything.  He has to be spoon fed.  He's on comforting medication.

Hospice has provided everything.  When I say everything, I mean right down to wipes.  Everything.

I am glad I made this decision.

Father in law is on his way up from Albuquerque as we speak.  Kids are coming today.  After all, it is Father's Day.

And now, we wait.  For in all probability, the next big stroke that will kill him.

This journey is almost over.  It's been a long one.  He's a fighter, but, this battle he just can't win.

I don't know what my life will be like without him.  I have no answers.

In my post on Facebook, I said, "It's been a great run", and it has.

This "play" is closing.  It's curtain call!!