Time

For those few who still stop by to visit this blog, I thought I would give a quick update.

I am not sad to see summer end.  It was not a good season for me.  Fall is coming to Colorado and it is beautiful here.  Crisp, chilly mornings, warm days and crisp, chilly evenings.  Good sleeping weather.

I find myself thinking about last year this time.  Comparing the then, to the now.  I don't think that's healthy, but, my mind won't stop.

My daughter, Kristen (who lives with me) was involved in a serious car accident on Sept 1st.  She was coming home from class when a company truck turned left in front of her, causing her to slam into his truck.  Unfortunately, the speed limit is 50 MPH in that area and she didn't have enough time to reduce her speed.  The air bags deployed and the car is totaled.

She was transported by ambulance to the hospital.  I got a call my daughter had been in an accident and was being transported.  I don't know how I managed to drive to hospital in one piece.  I had to drive by the intersection where the accident occurred.  Sitting at the red light, I watched as they loaded what was left of the car on a flat bed. 

I did ok until I was escorted into the emergency room by someone and then it all hit me at once.  I was taken back to June where husband was transported to the same hospital and died 2 weeks later.  I felt my knees buckle, but, had to be strong for her.

She has some serious injuries, but, with time and lots of physical therapy, she will recover.

So, you see, I am not sad to see summer go.  Enough.

I have good days and I have bad days.  I will be doing the laundry and all of a sudden, it will hit me that husband is gone.  I hate that feeling, it is so overwhelming and consuming that it's hard to describe.

Or, sitting outside, looking at the sky, I try to imagine husband in Heaven.  I'm sure my neighbors hear me talk to him or Jesus.  I'm also sure they have heard me cry a time or two.

I am actively looking for a cheaper place to live, preferably one with a small yard for my dog.  I pray throughout the day for this to happen.  I know He will provide me with one.  My income has been reduced due to the death of husband and forget about pinching pennies.  I have no pennies to pinch!!

So, prayers would be appreciated for a cheaper place!!  Thank you.

They say time heals all wounds.  I don't know about that.  I will never, ever get over husband's death.  My heart will never be the same.  I will never be the same.  But, with time, I know I will adjust to life without husband.  I know I will truly laugh again, I know I will truly smile again.

It just takes Time.