I did not realize just how long it's been since my last post.  I am having trouble focusing on keeping up with this blog.  Just too much at times to actually sit here and "talk" about husband.

I went to my Dr two weeks ago for a check up.  Everything was fine, however, I broke down and asked for something to calm me down when the going gets rough.  Now, I am the one who doesn't even take aspirin, let alone drugs to keep me calm.  Yeah, it's gotten to this point.

I had been having nightmares.  These nightmares were so severe that have left me shaken and sweating.  Crying as well.

My Dr explained that stress can cause these nightmares.  So, he did prescribed a very small dose and to take when I feel I need it.

I took husband on the 6th to see Dr F in Denver.  While he didn't give me a timeline, he did say that it might happen fast now.  His words, "He's in the final stretch now".

I now have nurses coming 7 days a week.  It's so nice to have them here.

Husband, for the most part is gone.  This has happened so fast, it's been overwhelming at times.

After dinner, he will go into the bedroom so he can "watch" the news.  The other night, as I was turning on his TV, he said, "Turn on the big TV, not the little one."  There is only 1 TV, his flat screen mounted.  I asked him to show me the other TV.  He just waved his hands and said no more.  Now, every night, he tells me, "the big one."

He spends more and more time on his bed, sleeping.

He can be pretty mean at times as well.  Yesterday, he lashed out at the nurse.  Took her by surprise.

So, that's it for us. 

I hope and pray this will all end soon. 

I'm tired.