A little late post today. Busy morning. Husband soiled his bed in the night, so, instead of doing my laundry tomorrow, I decided to do it today. Ugh,what was I thinking, it's hot today. The last two loads are in the dryers now.
Husband got breakfast in bed. He is a little confused as to the day. I keep telling him, Happy Father's Day, he smiles, politely, then looks away.
Kids have been calling. Our Jack called from Germany. I talked with him for a little bit, then took the phone to husband. When I told him it was Jack, he had no memory of having a son named Jack. I said it again, "Honey, it's Jack, your son." Finally, a light bulb went off, he smiled and took the phone. I had to show him how to hold the phone. He has been looking at it like it is a foreign object.
Thank you, Michelle, on your sweet comment about showing my grief. It's not like I want to hide, but, I just don't want to become one of those people who walk around boo hooing about what life has dealt them. I never, ever, want to feel sorry for myself. I don't want to become "one of those".
We have Handicap parking 4 apartments down from me. Since we moved here, I got covered parking, paying $15 extra each month. The lady that has been parking there has a handicap sign, but, is not handicapped. She got it from her ex boyfriend, because it's right outside her apartment.
After what I heard Wednesday at the Dr's, I spoke with her Thursday and said, "I just want you to know that I will be taking over the handicap spot until I move". I pointed to husband and said, "This is handicapped," pointed to her and said, "That is not."
We have always gotten along and I like her a lot. She is the one who's husband left her after 35 years of marriage. She hung her head and said, "You know, I've been meaning to talk to you about that. I feel so selfish. I feel so bad."
It all worked out perfect. Went to the office and told them that we were changing parking spots, to not tow her truck.
I told her I was nervous about taking over her spot, but, she was just so nice about it all. I also told her that if she is ever caught using someone else's handicap sign, she could be in big trouble. I think that scared her. There is no charge for the handicap parking. She loves my/her covered parking now!
Today, I am going to BBQ hamburgers. Grilling corn on the cob too. I made husband brownies. Not too familiar with BBQ'ing, so, hopefully, we won't have charred burgers.
Just another "new" to me. Gotta learn it sometime.
Here's to wishing all the dads out there, (if there are any reading) a very Happy Father's Day. May your Day be blessed with family.
Ours will be blessed too. Just, in a different way.
Memories.
I can appreciate your thoughts on sharing your grief, Sue. I don't get the impression you'll ever be "one of those" people.
ReplyDeleteI know your Father's Day is a different kind for you now, but I hope it was special with all your kids calling & that your bbq'ing turned out great. :)