Stormy Weather

Back online. Internet issues. Have been having them since September. Called cable co again yesterday. They sent someone out late afternoon. I believe he fixed it, at least I am able to get online again. Time will tell. It's only the 3rd time someone has come out to "fix" the issues.

On the home front, things are ok. Husband had Physical Therapy yesterday. Was pretty worn out by the end of his session. Husband seems to have stabilized, for now. He took a bad fall last night. Jack helped him up. All he could say over and over was, "Oh, I fell again. What's happening to me?" Jack and I talked to him softly, but he was scared about this fall. This time, he was scared. I'm scared all the time, just don't show it.

Weatherman said our weather is supposed to turn ugly today. Wind, snow and rain. I told Jack he could take the car to school today, but, told him if we woke up to icy roads, I would take him to school. Woke up this morning to clear skies, no wind, no snow, no rain. It's cold, but where is this "big" storm? Delayed over Arizona? I wonder about our weathermen. Do they really know what they're talking about?

I liken the weather here to Dementia. You can have the most beautiful, sunny days, then all of a sudden, wham, wind, rain and snow. Just like Dementia. You have such smooth periods of stability, tranquil like. Then, boom, confusion with reality, hallucinations, falling down, wandering off and getting lost. Just like the weather, you panic, put on warm clothes, drive slowly and crank up the heater. With Dementia, when it hits, you panic (inside), try to recover, try to find your ground, assure your loved one, go with the flow of this disease. Then, it's gone, and, in it's place is a shell of a man, damaged and destroyed like the wind of a storm. You pick up the peices, clean up the mess and wait for the next onslaught.

Yeah, it's like that.

So, I will wait for the "storm" they are predicting. And wait for the other storm that is sure to come. Oh, it's there, lurking in the shadows, waiting, just waiting. Just when you think it's safe to venture into somewhat of normalcy, it'll come at you with a vengence. Kind of like the weather.