Finding a place for your loved one is not as easy as it sounds. There are many steps in doing so.
Making the decision took me about 2 weeks and to come to terms with the most difficult decision I have ever made.
Once the decision was made, I started making phone calls. How hard could that be, I thought to myself? Not so easy. I can sum it up in two words:
I took husband to his Primary last week. Dr D was pleased with my decision. Once he found out I was trying to do this on my own, he put me in touch with his assistant. She said she would do the leg work for me.
This morning, sitting outside with my espresso, I began to pray. As of today, I have given it over to God. I know God will make a place for husband happen, and, it will be the best place.
Since then, I have a peaceful feeling, knowing He is in control and it will happen in His Time.
And, I'm OK with that.
Husband is not in a good place these last few days. He has been fixated on his wallet, with money in it. He will take the wallet out of his dresser and stare at the wallet for a good 15 minutes. He will then ask me to open it and count it for him. After I do, I put his wallet back in his drawer and tell him to leave it alone.
Then, I watch him sit on his bed, wringing his hands. After about 5 minutes, he's back at it with the wallet. This goes on most of the day.
He asked me yesterday how he would go about turning the money into "real money". Keeps me on my toes.
Thank you all for your prayers. My prayer is that God be in control. He promises that if you come to Him with your burden and heavy laden, He will give you rest.
It will happen. In His Time.