It's funny how just when I'm ready to throw in the towel, something good happens.
I got the call from Home Health Care earlier, telling me my Insurance approved us for 5 day a week nursing care. Big sigh here.
They told me they don't know how long 5 days will help. Next step will go up to 7 days a week, then 7 days, twice daily. After that, Hospice.
To hear that word, Hospice, well, kind of brought me back to reality, but, I refuse to let that word darken my day.
Husband doesn't know yet, he is sleeping. A normal for him. When he wakes up, I will tell him the good news. From then on, he will continually ask me again and again how many days a week for, I'm sure, the next couple of days. He just cannot retain anything.
So, today, I will not let anything bother me, for I know that beginning next week, a lot of this burden will be lifted from me. It's been a long 5 years caring for him, but, it's time to let the professionals take over. I've done all I can.
Bittersweet because the end is coming. On the other hand, I can honestly look at myself in the mirror and know I did the best I could.
And for that, I am thankful.