Sunday, October 13, 2013
What to do or what to say after yesterday's post. I, at times, feel so lost. I don't know which way to turn anymore.
I was told by the new Dr's and Hospice to start making final arrangements for husband. After calling father in law, he said he wants to be placed next to husband's mother after all. It didn't really upset me, as he paid for it when she died. It's his right to want to be placed next to her.
All I've thought about for the last several days is what the Dr advised me to do. Make final arrangements.
I don't know where to start. How does one go about making final arrangements? Especially when you've moved to a new city where you don't know anyone?
I never thought about final arrangements and what is involved. Just never crossed my mind. Now, however, it is on my mind constantly. I want to honor husband and do the right thing. I just don't know where to turn.
Do I place him in Albuquerque, or, here? Do I have him buried or cremated? Do I just spread his ashes in the mountains here? In Albuquerque?
Also, how much does this all cost? I have heard throughout the years that a funeral is a big expense. Something I surely don't have.
I suppose I should call around and get some ideas.
All this sounds so morbid, and I wouldn't blame any of you if you just clicked out of here fast. But, this is real life and what happens when you are slammed with the impending death of a spouse or loved one.
This is not fun and I want out of the game.
When I come here each morning, what you read comes straight from my heart and soul. I bare it all here, folks. I don't mince words, I tell it like it is. No cute pictures, no cute stories, no updates on what "Sally Sue" did in school.
I am wanting to find a Church here in the Springs. I miss it. I could use some Spiritual Guidance.
Maybe that'll get my mind off of Final Arrangements.