I get the keys to the apartment this morning. I can start moving in today. Jerry (my landlord's son) loaded my car yesterday afternoon. I plan on moving as much stuff as I can today and tomorrow and moving day is officially Saturday.
I just want it to be over with. This has been hard on me. Physically and mentally. All these decisions I have made. The finality and reality that this is really MY apartment hit me last night. I started to tear up, shook myself and told myself it's going to be alright. A new life, a new beginning. With just me.
Husband had a hard day yesterday. Confusion abounds. Wandering the more or less empty house. Boxes stacked in the dining room and living room. Tyler took him out for a ride, give him some fresh air and me a break. He bought him a Vitamin Water. When they got back, poor Tyler was exhausted. He came ahead of husband and told me how confused and agitated husband became. He said he didn't know what to do with him. Finally, he asked him if he wanted to come home. Husband said yes. Once he got back in the house, husband was fine. Tyler looked at me, confused at the sudden change in husband. With a sarcastic grin and a sarcastic voice, I looked up at him and said, "Welcome to my world."
This apartment has beautiful grounds. It also had a big duck pond, with a beautiful water feature. I have been telling husband once we get settled, I am going to take him to the pond. He remembers that and asks me how soon can we go. My living room window overlooks the pond. A really pretty view. The sight of this water feature may help my soul.
May everything help my soul. Today, tomorrow and the rest of my life.