There are days I have nothing to post about. Like today and yesterday. I think I'm boring some with the same words, same everything. "Husband continues to decline", or, "Husband has been confused for several days now."
But, this is my life right now. It's not filled with happy family gatherings, or, summer vacations, or happy outings, or any "normal" events happening in one's life.
My life is consumed with this horrible disease that is robbing my husband of his very life. This disease has robbed us of everything. The life we had and the life we envisioned once the kids were grown and gone.
Well, the youngest is leaving in September. All those plans we had will not be realized. Ever. At least, not with husband.
I am not looking forward to Jack leaving, but, crazy as it sounds, I am excited for him too.
Yesterday afternoon, I got to thinking. "Where will I be a year from now?" The thought scared me.
How will I be able to support myself? Where will I live? Could I afford to continue to live here, the place I love so much? Will I be lonely? Will sadness consume me?
I'm a survivor, I know that. But, I'm also human with real fears like everyone else.
Today, I don't know where I'm at. All I know is I think this blog is boring and wish I could offer you, my readers, more.
Unfortunately, this is all I have to offer.