Still in a slump. I've tried to shake it off, but, it won't leave me. I don't know how to describe it, it's just a slump.
I talked with my neighbor yesterday. She has a 10 yr old that is mentally handicapped. We were comparing notes on behavior problems with her girl and husband. It was nice to have someone to talk to that kind of gets where I'm coming from. Even if it's compared to a little girl.
I offered to take husband to father in law's house. He called his dad, but, Lupe said they had company, that father in law would call later. Husband was upset about the fact he didn't get to talk to his dad. I told him maybe he really couldn't come to the phone. Did no good. He said he would never talk to his dad again. His chin was quivering, mumbled to himself and finally went to his bed.
A little later, father in law called and apologized for not coming to the phone. Now, before the Genetics test came back positive, father in law would never apologize for anything. Since the results came back positive, he has done a complete turn around. We now share a common bond of dealing with this disease.
We talked for awhile, I explained that I had offered to take husband over there. He said he would try to come by today or tomorrow and pick husband up for the day. When I got off the phone, I told husband his dad was sorry he couldn't come to the phone, but, he said maybe today or tomorrow he would come pick up husband. Husband seemed calmer about that, but, still was not in a good mood.
I am still trying to figure out how I am supposed to get to San Antonio, Texas for Jack's Air Force graduation. I have no money to book a flight for us, no money for hotel, no money for car rental. Nothing. When he calls, he asks, "Mom, are you coming?" I tell him yes.
Gotta get this monkey off my back. Gotta pick myself up and continue this journey. People are depending on me. I've been talking to myself now. Crazy.
Today, I shall tell me, "Knock it off."