Christmas morning started out rough, but, ended well. Husband had been in a mood for a few days.
I decided to let him have his moment, then told him he could stay in the bedroom and be miserable, or, he could join the rest of the family once they got here and be a part of the family. With that, I left him in the room and soon, he came out and was fine.
So, for the rest of the day, well, it was great. I cooked, they all ate and swore I make the best stuffing, mashed potatoes and apple pies. Husband ate well.
I didn't tell anyone he had had a bad morning. I just went with the flow. He laughed and I could tell he was enjoying himself. "The look" was there all day, but, he did fine. I heard a lot of "remember when..........", glanced at husband, and he would be nodding his head, which is a sign to me that he does not remember or understand what they are saying, but, being polite, he would nod his head. He also laughed a lot.
So, Christmas 2012 was a success! My husband was happy. I laughed a lot too. It was great to have family here. This house is usually so quiet. I sometimes miss the noise of family. My heart was full.
OK, got the two major holidays out of the way. Moving day, here we come. Pat & Tyler will help and a family friend with the truck will help. Not much to move, as I have gotten rid of so much. It will be an adjustment, this small apartment, but, I'm more interested in the finance side of things. Just have to be able to make it from month to month.
A new year is coming. A new start. I don't know what this year will bring. My husband is fading away, but, I know deep in my heart that he will one day, be at peace.
Once all is said and done, I know I would have done the best I could do for him. And, sometimes, doing all I can for husband now is good enough.