The last few weeks have gone by in a blur. When I think back, just 3 weeks ago we were loading the moving truck bound for Colorado, it just doesn't seem possible that it was only 3 weeks ago. Then, there's the 2 weeks spent with Tish & Jace. That went fast. Now, here we are today, already in our own place for a week. Crazy.
During these 3 weeks, husband has been a champ. There were times I could overlook Alzheimer's. Well, almost. It was that good.
For the last 2 days, Alzheimer's has reared it's ugly head and made it's presence known to me once again.
I woke up at 5:30 this morning to find husband not in his bed. I yelled his name. Luckily, he answered. I asked him where he was and he said, "I'm trying to get out." Jumping out of bed, I ran to the front door. Not there. Hearing a noise from the bathroom, I found him there, staring into the mirror. He was trying to crawl through the mirror to "get out."
My heart sank. Just when I was beginning to relax too. Just when I was beginning to enjoy life, just a little. Just when I felt a little happiness as well. Throw in a little hope while you're at it.
My 3 week stay has ended. It was nice while it lasted. Now, it's time to get to the business of Alzheimer's. I feel like a fool, having a little ray of sunshine for the last few weeks. Who was I kidding?
The beast is back. And, I didn't miss you!!