Well, this is it. My last post before Colorado. House is packed, food is gone. Now all I have to do is take the cable equipment in this morning and I'm done. That's it. So much work. Picking the truck up tomorrow morning, loading up, going to hotel for Saturday night and hitting the road early Sunday morning.
Last night, as I was sitting in my recliner, I got to looking around the living room and dining room. My whole life, packed in boxes. Looked down the hall towards the bedroom. Husband, fast asleep, mouth wide open. Little gasps here and there for breath.
What happened to us?, I thought. Where did our life go? How did it all come to this?
"I'm taking my husband to Colorado so he can die", I said out loud, maybe saying it out loud sounded better than my thoughts?
I don't know.
So many thoughts lately. Neighbors coming to see me, telling me how much they are going to miss me, how they so enjoyed having me as a neighbor.
On the one hand, I am glad to be leaving New Mexico for good. On the other hand, I know what this move means to husband and know that it will lead to his death. And, leave me a Widow. Alone.
A door is closing here. For good. A new life awaits me in Colorado.
I will try and post Sunday or Monday.