Husband's last camping trip

Husband's last camping trip

Monday, July 2, 2012

Changes, they are a coming

Low key weekend.  I got a pool key yesterday.  Called Marie, she came over with the kids.  Went to the pool.  A little crowded since it was Sunday, but, she is coming over today and we will go swimming.  Most people work during the week, so, it'll be nice with less people.

Before we went to the pool, I asked husband if he wanted to come.  Offered to help him into the pool.  He did not want to come.  I told him it might do him some good, cooling off.  He wasn't in the mood.

I got my water fountain all set up Saturday.  It is nice.  Love the sound of babbling water.  Relaxing.  I am proud of the way it all turned out.  Having trouble uploading the pictures of my patio, but, hopefully will have them up soon.

This continued heat is getting to everyone.  We have set a record every day for the last 2 weeks.  It is awful.  We have trails down by the Rio Grande River.  It goes for many miles.  There are stopping points with benches, it's really pretty.  Because of fire danger, the Bosque (the trails) is now being patrolled and you can only enter a certain time each day.  The Bosque closes at sunset.  In all the years I've lived here, I have never heard of the Bosque closing.  Scary.

And, for the first time in many, many years, I can't wait for Winter.  Yes, it's been that hot.

So, life continues on.  Alzheimer's continues to destroy my husband.   Jack has 3 weeks left of summer school, graduation, then, leaving in September.  So many changes are coming.  Life altering changes.

I realized I have choices.  I have thought nothing of those choices for some time now.  Choices that will make my life better.  Choices that will end some of my stress.

Tish and Jace will be leaving Arizona between March & June of 2013.  They don't know where they are going to be stationed yet, however, I am going with them.  Enough of this financial strain.  She has been telling me for awhile now that that's what needs to be done.  And, they want me around.

We discussed husband.  I had planned to put him in a home.  I can't just put him in a home and leave him.  Of course not, she said.  He will come with me.  But, then Tish said something that really struck home.  She said, "Mom, he won't be around by next year.  I think you know that.  We all know that.  You are coming with me and that's that."


Their first choice is Colorado.  Second choice is California.  Third is New York.  I'm crossing my fingers for Colorado.

A new year, a new life.  For me.  A new day is coming.  It is well with my soul.     

1 comment:

  1. Colorado is beautiful and would be my first choice. So nice of your daughter to want you to come and to take her dad as well Hard to face thinking about next year.
    The heat is getting to me. We had the bad storms and was without power for 3 days. It was terrible. But most of our town is still out and they are saying July son is staying at his MIL with his family. It is so hard to face all the destruction, not being able to stay at home and rotten food. We stayed in our house but I was ready to pack up.
    Glad you got the key. You sound good.