Still holding steady here. I was gone most of the day yesterday. Husband had PT, it ran late, brought him home, rushed off to Bible Study, it ran late, then, off to an old friends'. She is a widow, in poor health, so I went over to help her out with some chores. I have to take her today to see an Orthopedic Specialist as she fractured her knee cap last week. We have been friends sine my Bank of America days. We started at the bank on the same day. Yesterday was busy. Not used to that anymore. It lets me forget for just a moment my life, and the horrors I live with.
Husband is still doing good. Has had a few slips here and there, but, all in all, it's still pleasant around here.
I made a nice dinner for us, it was almost like old times again. Jack in the kitchen with me as I cooked, telling me about his day at school, I loved it. I so wish it could be like that all the time.
I have decided not to further seeking employment at this time. I have had no response from anyone, and believe that it is not Gods' will I go back to work. My place is at home, financial struggle or not, I have to be here to care for husband. I could use the extra income, in fact, I need the extra income, however, I feel God is keeping me home for a reason. Hard pill to swallow when I run out of money by the 10th of the month, but, nonetheless, I will do what God wants me to do. He will somehow, someway, see me through these financial worries I have constantly on my mind.
I got some wonderful news last week. Tyler & Susie are expecting! She is about 4 weeks along. She works in Physical Therapy where I take husband. When husband was there yesterday, we sat and giggled and talked about the baby. They are so very excited and a much wanted baby is on the way. However, last night I got a call from them. They were on their way to the ER, Susie was in pain and bleeding. Tyler was asking me about her symptoms, did I ever experience it. I have ever had a miscarriage, so I wasn't much help. I told them I would pray for the safety of the baby. I prayed that the baby would be safe, but, sadly, I feel as if she lost it. I have not heard from Tyler, tried texting and calling late last night, no answer.
I got so sad about this. Just when I can have something to look forward to, a new baby in the family, a new life, it's gone. I know, I know, when these early miscarriages happen, it means something was wrong, but, it doesn't take away my sadness at the loss. I am still praying she did not loose the baby, but, I feel as if she did. I pray she will be able to deal with it.
The start of a new day.