It has been 1 year since I began this blog. 1 year and 1 week to be exact. I've made progress, but, have also felt stagnant. In my first post, I said husband had about 1 year. Well, 1 year has come and gone and he is still here. If you read the first post, I associated his impending death to the leaves during the seasons. I thought that was fitting because, there are seasons for everything. 1 year I've posted, just about every day (well, maybe not every day, but hey, you know what I mean). Happy Anniversary to me? Why not?
Husband has been doing so well with the walker. I took him with me to the store yesterday. He told me he was just going to use the cane. Absolutely not, I said. Told him he was to use the walker or he would not go. He used the walker. He was able to keep up with me, slowly, but, no sudden falls, no staggering. With the walker, he now can balance himself, making his walking easier.
He told me he likes the walker! Geez, why didn't I insist on the walker before? Well, to my defense, I did, but, he argued with me. Since last week, I have taken a different approach to him. I tell him we are doing this or we are doing that, and, that's it. He agrees, may not like some of it, but agrees.
I took him to DMV yesterday also. I got him a State Identification card. Looks like a Drivers License. He was OK with all of it. Actually, I am so proud of his attitude lately. It seems like he has finally come to terms with what is happening and goes with the flow. Oh, don't get me wrong, he has his moments. But, now, I squash that immediately. I tell him I will have no more of this "bad behavior". Guess he knows I mean it now, finally.
On the job hunt side of my life, no calls, no emails. I am seriously beginning to wonder what this is all about. Does God really want me home? I don't know. Now that husband is pretty bad off, how can I leave him? But, on the flip side, the extra income is needed. I'm not frustrated about seeking employment. I am waiting on the Lord. I gave it to Him, let Him take care of it. What will be, will be.
Well, there you have it. I've got 1 year and 1 week under my belt on this blog. Husband is using the walker 100% of the time. I have still not found a job. We will be moving to a new place in 3 1/2 weeks (YIKES). But, best of all, my husband is still alive.
I'll take it.