Life continues on. Not much to report on. Husband is OK, in and out of reality, but, OK, for now.
As I mentioned before, I hadn't gone to my regular Bible Study on Tuesday due to Jack taking the car to school. But, now that he is out, I have attended for the last two weeks. I did not mention that there is one woman who goes that is a very negative person. How can I explain it? Well, here goes.
She does not attend our church, but, I applaud her for attending this Bible Study every single week. She is faithful to her lessons. But, (yes, this is where the but comes in) she argues with everything I say, telling me I need to do this, or, I need to do that, or, how mean I am being to husband, saying she would never do this or that, all the while, asking the other ladies if they would handle a situation the way I did, making it sound as if I am just a mean person. She makes me uncomfortable. I can't help it, the woman makes me uncomfortable.
Yesterday, however, she crossed the line. Without going into detail, she made me feel like a heel, belittled me in front of the other ladies and judged me. I felt so exposed. I kept on, but had to practically sit on my face to keep me from saying anything. After the group had left, I stayed on and had to speak to J about this situation.
J agreed with me, said she was out of line, and said she would have a talk with her about her attitude toward me. I finally told J that she has made me uncomfortable since day one. I mentioned several things she has said to me since I began going. I had to let it out.
This woman does not know me, but, continues to judge me on everything. She doesn't have, nor ever had, a terminally ill husband. She has never dealt with any loved one pertaining to Alzheimer's. She does not walk in my shoes. She does not know anything about Alzheimer's.
I will attend next week, and, if she continues to degrade me in front of others, I will drop this Bible Study. I have enough negative in my life, dealing with husband and his illness. I don't need to expose myself to more.
We both deserve to attend bible Study, but, I also want to feel comfortable in going. At this point, I don't feel as if I should continue.
Am I wrong?